It’s hard to know where to begin; but I guess I’m just looking for a new way to give myself some accountability, and also to remind myself that despite setbacks over the last 18 months I’m not where I once was.
Around 2010 I was morbidly obese with multiple health issues. I weighed in at over 180kg, suffered with depression and had major family issues going on. A broken marriage, three kids (two of who have varying autistic disabilities), a poor support network and no idea of how to drag myself out of the darkness I was living in.
Fast forward to today. A lot happened over the past seven years; too much to put in here as my first post, but it will get touched upon over time. The basic gist though revolves around meeting a guy (Bill); who despite living halfway round the world from me, has cajoled, sweet talked and busted my butt as he taught me to believe in myself and my abilities.
I could lie and say it’s been all open roads and plain sailing, but I won’t. In all honesty it has been up and down over sleeping policemen, slamming into potholes, navigating diversions and hitting road closures. The biggest hurdle being around 18 months ago when; despite the fact I’d just reached double digits (coming in just under 100kg) a multitude of issues saw me spiral back into my darkness, losing my way yet again.
Now I’m sat kicking myself; fluctuating around 125kg, cursing the fact that there are times I just can’t control my headspace. It’s not all bad though. Bill has been beside me all this time; and keeps believing in me, even when I can’t. Now I’m ready to get back into the game and this blog is part of that.
Oh just to clarify; while I may speak about my weight, the reality is I have no target weight to aim for and I don’t believe in dieting. I weight train and try to ensure my food choices reflect the lifestyle I want to aim for. My journey is about body recomposition and a healthy lifestyle; not weight targets, fad diets or quick fixes.